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21 " I'm afraid if i go out again, i'll remember what he took from me. All these feeling of captivity will finally disappear and i will realize i am free. And i'll be like a bird whose cage door is left open. They don't understand that they're free. So they sit there, inside the cage and refuse to fly away. "
― J.A. Huss , Three, Two, One [321]
22 " sit up, ready to bolt back to JD’s room and get away from this asshole, but he grabs my tit and squeezes. I fall back against the pillow and moan. "
23 " just the three of us. Our uncontrollable lust for a lost girl. The rumble of the city waking up. And the rain. "
24 " more big moment? Can’t we just give this a try? And "
25 " can I fix this? How can I make these men mine when they have this shared sad past? "
26 " were part of a baby-selling ring, Blue. No. I shake the thought out of my head. I was a prisoner, like Ark said. They locked me in a cage for four months when they first found out. That’s how they kept me in the months after it was determined I couldn’t conceive. Every night they came and took me to the lounge. And every night I had a flock member to please in any way they wanted. I was not one of them. "
27 " It’s not a conventional love story. It’s not really a happily ever after. And it sure wasn’t the easiest way for two people to find each other. But all the broken pieces are finally back together. We are whole. And that’s all that matters. "
28 " It took weeks to clean him up and he had like two dozen relapses. Every time I took him back to rehab, they asked me why I bothered. And I always told them the same thing. Because no one else will. Everybody’s got a past. Everybody is running from some demon or another. Everybody needs a second chance. If there’s a person out there who has not fucked up royally and needed a second chance… well, that person hasn’t lived yet. "
29 " Money does that to you. Money changes you. I said it never would, but I was wrong. Something happens when you no longer have to worry about buying food and paying rent. It’s a subtle shift. "
30 " Be sure, Blue. Because what you desire can’t be achieved unless we cross some lines. Do you want to cross lines with me?” I take a deep breath and look him in the eyes. “Yes, please.” He slaps my face so hard, I fall to the ground. My knees hit the hard wood floor, making me scream out. He grabs my hair and pulls me back to my feet, and then drags me over to the bed and throws me down face-first. "
31 " Because even though this morning my acceptance felt a little bit like salvation, this evening it has a whole new feel. Defeat. It feels like I’m giving up. Like I’m giving in to what they made me. A prisoner. It feels like the end. And after a few minutes of pondering this as I stay still and silent like I’ve been taught to do, I realize I like that. I want the darkness to take over. I wish I was drugged up again so I could stop caring. I wish someone would drug me and make the darkness cover me like dirt over a grave. And maybe these guys are the answer to that prayer. Maybe these guys will finally do what the other ones never would. Maybe these guys will just let me die. "
32 " He waits in silence as I consider my answer. My body is sore. My face is still stinging from all the slaps. But my God, I’ve never felt so… alive. "
33 " One girl. Two friends. Three soulmates. Does it get any better than this? "
34 " We are not three people in a bed. We are not two people finding our climax. We are one. "